"...the thingness of something becomes apparent when it is no longer functioning as it did before or it becomes dysfunctional or if it appears in an unexpected place..."

A false spring

There had been a false spring in early February when, for several weeks it could have been summer but then winter reasserted itself and the temperature dropped to well below zero which weirdly echoed what had happened in my life. Each day just before sunset cherry growers sprayed water on the newly formed fruit on their trees so a layer of ice would form and protect the fruit itself from freezing which is completely counter intuitive but apparently it works. But I knew of no such trick for my heart which froze solid and it nearly killed me.